Not So Young Any More

I'm in no rush to call myself old yet, but I'm sure as hell not young any more, either.

Regardless of the terms I may choose to describe the place I am in my life, I find that I can't deny that I just don't have much real youth left any more, and I'm not sure how I feel about all that. There are things I sort of wish I'd done differently, or not done, or done, but I think that's pretty much anybody who's made it very much past the age of 15, really.

When I sat down to start writing this, I didn't really have much in mind for a subject. I just knew that I wanted to write something and get it up. I also started watching Skyfall, the James Bond film that came out in 2012, and it got me to thinking about getting older and how it tends to affect folks when they start getting to be about my age.

I'd intended to see both this one and Daniel Craig's previous Bond performance, Quantum of Solace, when they were new, after having seen the version of Casino Royale that came out in 2006. For the longest time, I kind of regretted it, because I hadn't seen any that I could remember since the Timothy Dalton era, and I've always been something of a Bond fan, based on those early films.

Once I got it going on Hulu, though, I was actually kind of glad I hadn't managed it until it had been out for just shy of a decade, by which time I was coming up on 45 years old rather than just having turned 35 a few months prior. So much has changed in those ten years, myself included. There's quite a lot of things that are different now, and while I think I can still adapt to some extent, I'm not sure what that extent is, and it's certainly not as easy as it used to be.

But like I've been saying, I'm not so young any more, as evidenced by the bottles of antacid and OTC naproxen I have on my desk and the nearly empty bottle of ibuprofen in the bathroom. I see a lot of gray and white hair when I look in a mirror any more.

There are a lot of things that hit differently now that I'm not exactly young any more. I can appreciate that things are different, that the world has changed, and sometimes it's hard to know which way of doing things is the best or correct way.

It's certainly an interesting thing to think about, and I've found myself doing that more than I probably should lately. Beyond that, I'm not sure where I'm going with this. It's just something to think about, I suppose.